This is kicking my butt

I started an exercise group at the church. I really did this for me, I know how absolutely selfish of me! But I am needing to be a little selfish right now. In between Jackson and Walker I lost about 30 lbs and it felt so good. I kept it off for a couple years, but after I had Walker I put a little back on and then I got pregnant with Lila before I could take it off. After I gave birth to Lila I put all the rest of the 30 lbs on. Now I do not gain weight when I am pregnant, I actually loose it. I weigh less the day I give birth than the day I got pregnant. It is when I am nursing and after that that I put on the weight. Very frustrating for me, but it is all my fault. So I have decided that no more of that crap and I am going to loose the weight and not just the 30lbs, but 60lbs. Yes that is my goal and so far I only have 54 more pounds to go...well wait let me just check....OK so maybe I am retaining a little water and so I have 55 pounds to go, what ever. With trying to stay frugal and live with in my means, joining a gym is really not on my high priority lists and so I started taking my work out DVD to the church gym and invited any one who was interested to join me.

Two reasons for this
1. If I am accountable to others then I will have to show up
2. It is way more fun to work out with friends

So every Monday, Wednesday and Friday I get my butt to the church and work out.

I am totally enjoying it but it is kicking my butt and I hurt every where!

My very best friend of all time quoted this to me saying

"It is hard to loose weight but it is also hard to be fat....which would you rather be or do?"

I want to loose weight so here I am doing what needs to be done and be a healthy happier me!