Tears and Puffed Wheat Squares

I went visiting teaching today. I took the boys with me since I have not really met any one as of yet who I feel I can call and swap baby sitting with yet and I figured the lady I was visiting has children so it should be fine and I guess it was fine, but being pregnant and very hormonal I found my self trying not to cry the whole time I was there. Why does it seem that when I go out with the boys to some where new they have to act like little animals? I made sure that before we got there to talk to them about being well behaved and to listen when I ask them to do or not to do some thing and both seemed to say yes mother we promise to listen(or maybe it was just my wishful thinking). So after trying to get through the lesson and running around and trying to keep Walker out of this and that and not writing on the walls with crayon, and then keeping Jackson out of rooms he has no business being in, I was totally done. My companion had to leave to go to work and the lady I visit asked us if we wanted to stay...but I couldn't....I needed to get away before I broke down and cried and embarrassed my self. So out to the van we go and out came the tears. Some times I wonder if I will ever be able to take the boys any where and not have people think what a terrible mother I am and how I have no control. This lady I was visiting has said that she would like our family to come over for dinner....but I wonder if she has now changed her mind. I think I probably freaked my boys out as I was sobbing and getting after them the ride home...poor Jackson he is so sensitive and was almost in tears him self.....and how do explain to a 5 year old that most of the tears are caused by pregnancy hormones!

So I cried some more and then made my current favourite crave food...puffed wheat squares. I have an obsession. I have made several pans of these heavenly treats and basically have eaten most of them my self. Walker will indulge every now and then and so will Kal...Jackson tried to tell me that he hates them...until he tried one today...now they are great. I am kind of glad that the boys in my family are not the biggest fans as it leaves me with the majority to eat on my own. Funny thing is when you eat allot of these lovely treats...they make your pee smell like puffed wheat and when you are pregnant you pee allot...I know way too much information!